Friday night I received a notice in my email account that a new comment had been added to my guestbook. I went to see what was written..typically it is someone just saying hi, thanks, or has a question about some aspect of the transition process. But this time it was someone leaving me what I read as hate mail. For the past three and half years of being public, I've had this type of thing happen to me verbally...once or twice. To see it in words on my website, a place where I'm laying it all out there and being as open and honest as I can makes me a little annoyed.
My first thought while reading thier hateful words was, "How dare you." How dare a person, who doesn't even have the balls to leave a name or email address say something horrible about me. How dare they. My website is like my home, it's common courtesy to be respectful of someone in their home, if you can't, then just freakin' leave. No one is forcing a person to go to my website, read my story, or view my various media appearances.
It was obviously their choice and it shows that they obviously are trying to work out some issues but are too afraid of what they are feeling and so they hide behind their view of what organized religion is. Their very distorted, fearful view. I firmly believe that heaven and hell are what we live every day, in our bodies, on this planet. In some areas we have a choice, which reality we are going to let our experiences and feelings go, in other areas we do not due to economy, politics, and sadly others religious crusades and persecutions.
I had a choice four years ago....I could continue living in fear, living in guilt and shame of what my identities were...or I could embrace them, experience them, and share them with the people who I love. I lived in hell for many years, I experienced extreme depression, fear, hate, gluttony, self-harm, suicide attempts, etc...THAT was my life before I accepted myself. Now I have love, family, freedom, moderation, and experiences that make me proud to be on this planet.
How dare a stranger judge my life and where it is going when they don't know anything about me. I'd love to meet this person face to face and see what it is they are really fearful of. If people want to hide behind their fear, fine...but don't go bringing their petty judgments into my house.
It is bad enough, each day to see what religious views bring to this country, new laws that restrict human and civil rights. Laws being passed to allow biased medical providers to give selective treatment to patients, disregarding the hippocratic oath and the rights we all have as individuals in need of medical care, surgeries, and perscriptions.
The global ecomony, the degrading eco-system and the sadness we are feeling as humans is a true representative of what others ways of twisting the laws, abusing the system and ignoring the science either because of money or religion is why we are where we are today. Not because one person loves another or because I aligned my body with my brain.
I recycle, conserve energy, avoid over-spending, brake for bunnies, respect others privacy, and cross the street when there is a person lit up instead of a red-hand. What have those evangelitist ministers done lately? Priests? Conservative politicians? The CEO's of major companies? Homophobic pricks? What have they done? Do a google search and then tell me where the true problems are in our society.
