Mood:
a-okI'm doing the extensive journaling about my lower surgery on my "lower surgery" page but I felt like writing a little blog to just say how amazed I am by our life journies. If you would have told me twelve years ago that I would transition to a male and complete all of my surgeries within a three year span, I wouldn't have believed you, one because I didn't understand that it was possible at that time to transition and two I would have laughed at the amount of money we are forced to pay out to be who we are on this planet.
I sometimes wonder what my life would be like right now if trans people were supported by our US govt and we didn't have to go into debt beyond our eyeballs....but then I try to shake it off because I have my whole life to pay back my debt but only the present to be who I am.
I hope people reading this who are comfortbale in the sex/gender that they were born into appreciate more what has been given to them. Going through the surgeries, the recoveries, the hoops and loops, the doctor consultations/visits/insurance nightmares, the paper trails, legal trails, fear of discrimination trails, the ignorant responses, "You used to be a chick!", is something you'll never experience.
I laugh at the way some media portray trans people and the way they yell out their headlines. I've been in various trans communities and we are all just people, trying to live our lives as truly as we can. We aren't hiding behind our fears but washing the fears away and enjoying the time we have on this planet in the bodies we need to navigate us through the social constructs.
With all the crap that I've gone through, I feel like I've lived many lives in just the almost 29 years that I've been on this planet, and even though there have been many battles, challenges and hardships, I look forward to what the future may bring but am always very happy to be in the present.
